Dreams, New Plans
I don't think we even know the meaning of that word. Most of us think
we have patience if we don't get mad because we had to wait 20 minutes
to order our food at a restaurant. I know I don't have much patience even
though I think I'm starting to understand about it a little more.
Why do I bring up something that we all
hate to hear about? Well for me it is because a little over a year ago
God brought back to my mind something He put on my heart some 23 years
ago. I had pushed it to the back of my mind for many years because it
seemed so impossible and it didn't seem that God was doing anything to
cause it to happen. It's funny how we let our dreams die because we have
no patience. We settle for things far less than we dream or create something
in our own power that we think will take the place of them and satisfy
This all brings me to what is on my mind
tonight. Over the last year Jason and I have talked about our desire to
have a Christian camp. This is the thing that God put on my heart 23 years
ago. My desire then was to minister to people by teaching them how they
could be pleasing to God, (makes me gag to think about that). It didn't
take long for that to change after trying to please Him for a few years
I saw that I was pleasing to Him based on the work of the cross and not
by anything I did or did not do. I'm glad I didn't get my wish to work
at or start a camp back then. Jason and I, having quite a bit of camp
experience between us, knew what it would take to build and operate a
camp facility. My thing I asked him every time I talked with him was "has
anyone given you a million dollars today?". Of course nobody has
but I still ask from time to time. Our desire has grown as the year has
passed and we talked about ways we could see our dream come true.
During this time I was also struggling
with what I was supposed to be doing. For a while it seemed like no doors
would open and I might starve but we know that wouldn't happen. J One
job opportunity came up that would have been a great job but not where
my heart was but due to money concerns I decide to pursue it. God closed
the door on that one. Another possibility was to work for my old boss
in a new company he had started up but he didn't think that it would be
possible till December. This was the way I wanted to go but didn't have
a clue how I would survive until then. Well he called me back in July
and wanted to get together and talk about the job. I left that meeting
employed again the only catch is that I'm on full commission with no salary.
That has its good points and bad. The job is selling 4 sided planer molders.
If you want to know what that is you can check out the website at www.planerpro.com.
The good thing about this is that I have
sold these type planers before and did well at it; the bad thing is that
production has been delayed on them till the first of the year. We have
been doing odd jobs to keep the company going while we wait on the planers
to enter production and I have been able to get enough hours to scrape
by working at these things. I tell you all of this because it has a great
deal to do with our desire to start our camp. Before I went to talk with
my boss Charlie in July, I sat down and started thinking how I wanted
this job to be and what I wanted to get out of it. As I thought about
that it came to my mind that I could sell planers from anywhere.
Jason and I had thought that East Texas
might be the place we wanted the camp so the idea struck me that after
we got things rolling here that I could move there and continue to sell
from there. The more I thought about it I realized that if I could make
enough money in the next three years and then move I could have enough
saved to open an equipment sales business that would support Jason and
myself. The thing I realized was that this camp idea was so big; if we
didn't make plans then it would never happen even if we have no clue how
the plans will happen. With that in mind I looked at what I had done in
sales before and what I thought I would be able to sell with the new planer.
I figured what I would need to make on commission to achieve this three-year
goal and that was what I asked for when I met with Charlie and told him
what my plan was. Guess what? The answer was yes to all of it. I don't
know how all of this will play out since I'm not three years down the
road but it looks good at the moment.
In talking with Jason we decided that we
needed to sit down and talk about our heart for this camp and some specific
thoughts and plans. It had been over a year since I had seen Jason face
to face so we made plans to get together. On October 13th we sat down
over a cup of coffee along with another friend of ours (John Cordova)
and asked the question, "What is our ministry purpose for this camp
and what do we want to see happen there?" You can sum up the answer
in one verse,
34:8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
want people to get a taste of God and see that He is good and that
blessed is the man who trusts in Him and not in his self. It brings tears
to my eyes now as I think about us setting and talking about that verse
and the desire we have for people to taste and know God in an intimate
I tell you this story for several reasons,
one would be that you would pray for us as we continue down this road
and make plans. The other one is to encourage you not to give up on the
dreams that God has put on your heart. I can't say how God will fill the
desire in my heart for this or if the plans we make now will come to pass
like we think but I believe I must follow Him and the desires that came
with the new heart He gave me at the cross. Why He has not let me settle
for less, I can only account for by His grace. Like I said, I had pushed
this out of my mind but He brought it back. A few months ago I was thinking,
this job will make me a good living and future and He closed the door.
I can't explain why or how God works the way He does but I know that He
always does what is best for me.
I will write more about our plans later
and give more detail on what we think will happen in the coming years.
My Prayer for Today:
God let me follow You today and if that doesn't match my plans then give
me the wisdom and the grace to change them. God live your plan through